Mental Blabberings

love hurts. hearing things without being prepared to hear them is a shocking and traumatic experience. not only does it leave you nerve wracked, teary eyed and hurting, but speechless and confused. when you get hit physically, you feel where it hurts. but if you get hurt emotionally, you dont know what hit you, or how it hit you - all you know is that it hurts. big time. i wouldnt want to elaborate my condition but you could relate by imagining what if your best friend suddenly tells you to not call her. and does on explaining that it is too expensive (the call). putting it this way doest feel so bad, but then if you and your friend only get to meet and talk for only maybe once a week lately, then that statement doesnt make much sense. and sure, you can go ahead and ignore what she just said, but then she still said it, and a little later, you realize that she didnt realize (or she did, but didnt bother to tell you) that the reason for calling is because you want to talk t...

i should start studying... like my new lease in life, i gotta live through it... need to study and become a real student now. =) i wont be able to post anything of importance as of late, but ill try my best though.... chill ya'll... =)

3.0 na yung 4.0 ko sa cmsc 123! ang saya saya ng feeling ng nakakapagremove ng 4.0 at pumapasa! its like having a new lease on life... life as a college student. english: i can get higher comsci subjects and its like having a new lease on life as a college student. french: i will still need to learn french, so i beg your pardon... ;-) chill... :-)

why the internet shouldnt be free basically, the internet has been an infrastructure project of the united states government, which grew out because of commercial availability and provision, that's why it cant be free. :-) but then, we cant be happy since it isnt free - but just like beer, we pay for it, because we like it... :-) so my point is, because it aint free (yet) we still have to pay for the service. and thus it means another P500 for the coming semester, to activate my email... oh well, that's life. and that's the reason why i havent been able to blog for a few days. and besides, i havent had anything good to say (not that i ever had anything good to say then...) so i might as well blog the next time im in. :-) chill... :-)

to nikki and badsekt0r i am now currently using the mozilla 1.0-rc3 and this is comparatively faster and better than the earlier versions that i've used. but i am having problems with my mailer though because of the change. hope to hear from you soon!

just finished reading a book... i just finished Linus Torvalds' biography, and well now i find i am not alone - i am not the only geek who enjoys coding and hacking at my own projects even how little it may seem... now i understand that it is possible for two people who have never met each other, who have had the different set of experiences all their lives, not even being born in the same generation, could be very nuch alike. i find a lot of linus' characteristics and views to be much the same as mine. i dont really think it is because i use his operating system, and not because we're both computer science students. why, its the first time i ever read his book, and right off the starting page, i found a lot of similarities between us two. maybe this isn't much to most of you but to a geek like me, its fun to see someone else living a life like i do. but the difference is, i did enjoy having girlfrinds - unlike him. hehehe. =) to those who know linus, who he...

is it hard to be forgiving? well sometimes, when people take advantage of your being forgiving, then it becomes quite hard. other people dont seem to mind being themslves and keep on being themselves - even if it becomes detrimental to you. but yes - the golden rule: do unto others what you want done unto you. but when enough is enough, you just cant forgive everything wrong that everybody else does to you - you have to take a stand. here we must strike a balance between forgiving, and being overly unaffected. maybe we can let some things pass, but when these things come back they shouldnt be let to go like it was the first time. unless you think that there's a chance that it really wont happen again, and then you start forgiving again. its a vicious cylce which can consume the most of the very forgiving. but then if you can afford to be very forgiving, then i tip my hat to you. why, i should get lessons from you! =) so now, i think i'll forgive those that have d...