Mental Blabberings

spend some time. have you ever felt so tired, you dont want to do anything anymore? or you want to do something but then you cant cause you're too tired to do so? well i have, and the best thing ive done for myself is spend some time with me - the person that i am. just to see whether i still am the person i know, and whether or not i can change to the person i would want to be. of course individuality is the in thing nowadays, and yes - we become what we want to become of ourselves. but have you ever tried to be the person you want to be, instead of the person that you are? sounds like something a shrink would tell you, but you should try it. it never hurts to know what you do and dont like about yourself. because if you try and do so, you would become conscious of the person that you are, and work on the person who you want to be. i've always wanted to be there for ther people who are important to me, and consciously making a decision such as this helps me work t...

understatement. Busy, is an understatement. This is always true whenever someone is really busy. Talk about busy, and there is no word better to describe the feeling but busy . my schedule has been to packed to give way to leisure and fun - because primarily of the urgency in the activities, and also because im having fun doing what i do in my time. so does this mean im really busy? oh yes it does. doing stuff that you are having fun doing can eat so much of your time that wanting to do more is something that comes naturally. maybe i'm a workaholic, but then i really dont consider what i am doing as work, but stuff that i love doing. travelling, engaging in spectator sports, spending time with friends and family, watching my 2 month old neice sleep, having laughs with friends, enjoying the company of my love, programming, chatting, blogging... and the list goes on and on... so am i busy? yes. my life hasn't been so full like now even before my depression. i am s...

quit. when you cant do something any more, you quit doing it. when you are too dragged by something you are currently doing, quit it. if you're not enjoying what you are doing now, then quit it. there is nothing wrong with stopping what you dont like doing, because basically you have a choice - and you always do no matter what anybody else tells you. so say you want to do something, you do it right? but then after some time, and you realize that you're not really happy doing it, then it's just appropriate that you quit doing it. it's important that we learn how to say no every now and then to go on with life doing what you really want to do. life is really all about choices, whether we like it or not. when you get too much of something, it's never good to get more of it. if you're stressed in a certain doing, then doing it more would only bring more stress - so do yourself a favor and quit it. quitting is never cowardly - its actually more brave if ...

convincing... people speak their minds - no matter when, and what about. whenever a person starts opening his/herm mouth to speak, he/she speaks her mind whether he/she likes it or not. you can try role playing, but you can only do it to a certain extent. you could be this now, and be another later. you can even play a role which actually is similar to who you really are. but then you always speak your mind - even if your mindset is that of the role you're playing... how hard is it to not speak your mind? ever got burnt/scalded? ever got your toe stopmed on? ever twisted your ankle? the initial reaction would then be immediate, and it would be hard to suppress. but even if you do suppress it for the moment, the next thing you say would reflect what you felt, and what you think. so the next time a person you know opens his or her mouth to speak, try to keep in mind that whatever he or she is about to say is what he or she is thinking. no more, no less. chill ya'l...

procastinating... it has been such a dry and uneventful first half of the week, and im now beginning to feel so tired. now i know how it feels like to get tired of doing nothing. but then i am thankful that i am getting enough time to do what i have to do. and these are, among other things, live and love. im not to free to just do the two, but not too busy to forget them either. give me more time, and ill give you more time to give me more. =) until next time... =)

the best two words in the world... how great is it to be appreciated? the sweetest words you get when you do someone a favor, or something that they value, are ' thank you ' and somehow, we sometimes overlook that word. i take time to think about and reflect on the days' events, and it never fails to make me smile when i remember someone thanking me for something i did for them - or just for something i did. these little things tend to remind me of the value that people have - and the value thay give to other people. have you ever stopped to think about that person in the jeepney who reached for, and passed on your fair? did you thank him or her? well, when i think about it, they valued me as a person, and thus i must be able to return the favor. i try my best to thank the person who has either consciously or unconsciously helped me on something. i'm also thankful to people who do the same. =) its just a practice of mine to say thanks to people who have don...

im ok, really... =( "are you ok?" we sometimes ask - but then what would you think if the answer was similar to the statement: "i'm ok, really... (with a frown)" ? we sometimes regret that we even asked. and what would you feel when you greet or call a person you know, very happy with her companions and obviously having a great time, would suddenly turn sulky, unhappy, with a poker face and then greets you by your name - obviously not so happy to see you? and then finally you pay your friend a visit, and even though she is obviously not in the mood for a conversation, would so politely wait for you to leave. how would you feel? please try to be in my shoes. would you then understand why i still go through the same routine over and over again, not allowing these all too obvious things affect our friendship, or so what we call it? would you also understand why after all of these things i see and feel, i still love her? i hate to think of it as a on...