Mental Blabberings

thesis update for the past few weeks i have been preoccupied by my study on a projective load balancing algorithm as well as a parallel multiple population genetic algorithm with species migration solution to the assymetric travelling salesman problem. i have run a pretest on the 16 node beowulf cluster i have setup at the Institute of Computer Science at the University of the Philippines at Los Banos (UPLB ICS) by getting the area under the curve f(x) = 1/x^3 + 1/x^2 + 1/x from 1 to 1000. and right now, i have very encouraging findings regarding the performance speedup of the 16 node parallel computation compared to a sequqntial implementation of the solution. however, the findings will be posted in due time. right now i am writing a couple of papers regarding 1) the computational speedup of parallel computation using clusters and try and a mathematical model on the relation among the number of processors, the amount of computational time it takes to complete the run of a solu...

party five page paper, intelligent robot, watershed management software, and a new cellular phone. that's what's been keeping me busy as of late, and frankly they're all nagging bitchen that i have to attend to ALL THE TIME. thank God the five page paper is done, the watershed management software is 85% complete (at least my part of it), and the new cellphone is a real dandy. the intelligent robot, i'll be workin on in a few hours maybe. i'm still warming up my brain. ;-) but the week before, i was in a completely different mood. i was so into parties, that i went to two parties in the same day (well, one was a real party but the other was like a "guy's night out"). and just last friday, i wen't out relaxin' at the local bar. and just yesterday, yet another party -- a friend's debut (18th birthday). talk about hang overs. anyway, quite contrary, everything else that's happening is nowhere near a party. i'm getting cramm...

nostalgia i just recieved email from one of my previous girlfriends. and i can't explain the feeling i got when i was reading it, and i had to reassess what's really happening in my life right now. first of all, i am in love with someone, and i'm seeing another person. i am still open to dating and meeting other people, and i don't know what i rally want to do. i am busy with a lot of things right now, and i'll be busy at least in the immediate future. i know i want a life which i enjoy, and i do enjoy this life right now. however, i am not very good when it comes to situations where i have seemingly no control over. when it comes to love and relationships, i tend to take control and move things the way i like things to go. maybe that explains why i havent had any relationships that really lasted. until this particular girl got into my life. this previous girlfriend (#4 to be more exact) of mine, is someone i've met and known even before my first girlf...

bliss a few days ago, i was part of a team which won 3rd place at the wireless challenge held at the westin philippine plaza. now, i am modestly 50,000 pesos richer. and aside from that, i'm one year older (last July 27). and politically, im beginning to think that the philippine government needs an overhaul. but then that's just me. something noteworthy though is a little story which i would like to tell about me, and a certain lady i love. to cut the long story short, apparently i really don't mean anything to her at all, and that i could might as well die and she wouldn't care a tad bit about me. oh well, but then that's life. and there are a lot of women that deserve my love aside from her -- it's just that i've been to busy making her love me instead of learning to love other people. and as i get older and a bit wiser, im still going to be the person that i am. and as far as i'm concerned, i'm just gonna live my life and be happy doin...

emotion perception, emotion, ideas, and life. they all mix well together -- shaken not stirred as how James Bond would like to have it. however the normal geeky person like me would prefer a little of each and every thing not related to what I actually like doing. i'm talking about the dynamics involved in dating, life, friends, and things like plays and poems. however, i also tend to believe that life is meant to be lived as well as not put to waste. and aside from wanting to do a lot of things and a few things that i have to do, i think life is full of things that you put in it. i believe that my life is what i make it, and by some predefined and discreetly and non-obvious plan which is beyond my comprehension, is meant to go somwhow this way. this doesn't affirm any religious theories that have been fed to me by my past scholarly experiences, however this is something that people have more or less come up with in relation to trying to explain things that is beyond the...

burned out had dinner with a girl i admire monday, tuesday was a 7-7 day, and now i'm puffed out. tired, exhausted, what have you... i know i could go on and have fun still, but im dead tired right now to do something really stupid or even productive -- to do anything for that matter. i know i've still got to go on and live, but im so darn tired that i can't even think straight. maybe a few more hours in bed should help. anyway, im absent for the whole day, and somewhat detached from my friends. perhaps a day isn't too much to ask for myself. tryin' to chill...

im on a high i'm on a high! i just got a new mobile phone (+639198720686), qualified for a contest, and just went out with a lady i admire. anyway, i really had a nice week, and just now a nice day. hope this gets me into something positive. :) should start making myself better, for i have found renewed vigor and reason to go on. :) still chillin'... :)