Mental Blabberings

I don't feel like writing a lot publicly about things that have been happening in my life. I've rediscovered the utility of a private journal, and now I'm taking an indefinitely leave of absence from this blog. Until further notice, consider this blog retired. It's been a good run, thanks to everyone who've ever visited and commented. Chill.

I just had my impacted wisdom teeth removed yesterday. Now my face is swollen, and I hope the swelling stops soon. It's not painful though, so I thank God for that. CHill!

Today I got up pretty late. I've just had lunch and it's been a while since I've had a good meal for lunch. I weighed myself as well today, and I'm now 193 lbs! Compare that to 205 lbs a couple weeks back, and I'd say I'm in pretty good shape. Thirty three pounds to go and I'm within the safe weight range. Another fifteen pounds after that and I'd say I'll be in very good shape. This isn't so bad, the diet is definitely growing on me. Until tomorrow!

My girlfriend's phone is dead and she's in her province. I'm here in my province and I can't reach her because my phone batteries are close to dying now too. Yesterday traffic was insane and it caused us (the family) at least six hours yesterday in total waiting for traffic to move. I'm not in the mood for blogging right now which should show. I miss my baby so bad. Until tomorrow.

Dad's back home! He wasn't gone for a long while but he had the chance to get a change of scenery good enough to change his mood. Now he smiles more than before he went to the US for that break. I on the other hand am doing alright, though I'm still getting the hang of the diet. Like right now, I'm craving for something filling but I can't just have anything I think of. So still the challenge is the food -- but it's slowly getting better. I should be able to weigh myself now and feel like I'm under 200lbs; and I'm confident about it. So the day was alright, hours and hours spent traveling from Makati to Laguna and back. The class wasn't that interesting, just a couple new interpolation methods discussed: more to study for the exam. Slowly this studying thing is becoming a chore and I'm slowly regretting why I even signed up for finishing it *now*. I was looking forward to this but now I'm looking back and I'm thinking perhaps my instincts...

So I'm back in the office now. It's not a joke this job that I do... It's not a joke by a long shot. So when there are meetings, conversations, things to do, and other issues that need to be resolved the last thing I want to think about it eating. But then when you're in a metropolitan city where all the conveniences of the modern life -- and modern food -- are at an arm's reach, how can I avoid thinking about food? The answer is I don't. I think about it like I ought to think about it: what I can eat and what I ought not to eat. I can talk about it and I can think about it but I stick to the food that I should eat. I get it from friends and work mates: "So what *can* you eat?". The answer is simple: only those that's good for me. That means low sodium, low fat, high fiber, low/no sugar, virtually no cholesterol, all good natural food. And that's not just because I'm on a diet to lose weight, that's also so that I can stay a bit longer ...

Each day gets better. Not only does my love for my girlfriend grow stronger every day, the chest pain I've been feeling for the past week is starting to go away. Today is the first day I feel that I can do anything and move about without the chest pain bothering me. When I woke up this morning (pretty late) it felt different. I wasn't feeling any discomfort in my chest anymore -- or at least it's not like it used to be. Now I'm enjoying this day like I used to enjoy everyday with virtually no pain in my chest. I also had a very nice IM conversation with my love -- who also commented on my first day post -- and all I can say is that my day is going very well. I hope the coming days are more like this day, and that the road to reversing diabetes and hypertension would be as nice as this day. If there's something that I need to get through which will take more out of me than anything else I've ever done is saying "no" to a lot of the food that I used to e...