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It's been a while since I've been working on 3 projects simultaneously and frankly I just love it. The idea of deadlines being beaten, and things working, features added and people happy just make it such a worthwhile experience. Although it's quite taxing, I've found solace in Ronaldo, Beckham, Zidane, Roberto Carlos, Figo, Casillas, and the rest of Real Madrid.

I haven't been a big fan of football, but I've been watching my share of football since we've gotten cable (AT LAST) in Calauan. Staying up in the wee hours of the morning up coding in C++, Java, and PHP (in 3 separate projects almost multitaskingly (CRAZY)) makes me so much more productive -- unless you consider that I sleep at 4 and wake up around 11 am. The excitement of watching an attempt by any football player on TV while debugging code with elusive bugs makes it so worthwhile. Then when you squash the bug, you just feel so much like a person scoring a goal against Real Madrid. Or Manchester United, depends on which team you hate more. :)

As for everything else happening in life, aside from the fact that I still want to be able to party, get me a loving girlfriend, and finish the projects in time, I still feel old. Empty I should say, and dried out. Except for the "temporary highs" that programming and research brings me, I still want to get somewhere fast (contrast to nowhere fast when I stay in Calauan). The job at the municipal hall is too mundane for me and my skills, and I'm thinking of resigning (the pay is TOO LOW, and the work is TOO MANUAL). Sometimes, I forget the I have to get there and pitch in my time fixing problems that shouldn't be there if only the people knew how to use the computer.

Oh well, stepping stones don't always lead you to where you want to go -- and I'm thinking of finding another stone to step on anytime soon.

Chilled.

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