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Super Sayan Mode

I have a deadline for code modules that should be in and testable by the end of tomorrow -- and the test server is dead, the code I've written the past week has not been tested, this laptop cannot handle the requirements for building the application, and I'm stuck here for the next 24 hours (or less) to get things working. It's in C++, most of what has to be done is dependent on my teammate's output, and I have still to modify what he has already done.

Tomorrow, I'll be spending most of the day passing correspondence, talking to people, travelling from one place to another (actually, travelling from UPLB to the office), and then finally getting the code to work at the test server. This I have to do before saturday, and next week will be the start of the code freeze and application testing. I have a lot more things to worry about aside beating the deadline, right now it seems that that's my most emminent concern.

I know what I should do, but right now my brain hasn't picked up just yet -- maybe still adjusting to working at home again, or just absorbing all the conversation I've been through for this day. I know what I have to do, and the thing is that I have just got to do it.

I'll be sending an email regarding my progress in the middle of the night, and as soon as I think it's going to work I will have to report it. Keeping a MUA working in the background isn't a bad thing, but keeping my hands off browsing other sites is another. I have got to find the discipline and inspiration I once had when I started working for the company. Thing is, right now I'm preoccupied with my business plan and setting up the company in the near future.

But I have got to get my coding juices flowing so that I beat this darn deadline, and so that my credibility doesn't get tarnished. It's my name on the line, and I have to deliver -- not because I have to, but because I know I can. It's more proving something to me, than proving something to someone else. Come to think of it, this is a challenge I cannot afford to back down on.

Given that I'll be going back to school, I'll have to deliver.

CHill...

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