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priorities, preferences, and pressure. the three P's that give me the X's. i've had to drop a few things that i think i should've dropped a long time ago. but now, the change is so sudden, that i'll need a break to adjust.

new priorities, new preferences, and new pressures have taken form in my life. these changes are far too important to postpone, and being in the state of transition kinda gives me a very uneasy feeling. i'm not used to too much change all at the same time, mainly because it messes up my rythm too much.

i hope the people around me notice it, and take it constructively like i do. but unfortunately, most people don't. i feel very sorry that i havent been able to give my time to the people that i used to spend my time with. now, i'm spending my time with new people, making new bonds, and wishing that the old bonds haven't been broken yet.

but inevitably, change is the constant factor in life -- which makes it worth living. i hope that change gives me a new clean slate on which i could build myself upon once again, and not anymore dabble in the routine that i've fallen into these last few years of my life. i hope that the changes that i've brought into my life are worth it, because i am as sure as hell will make it worth it.

until next time...

chill -- =)

i love you elvine! =)

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